year end

This month started out rough, we said good bye to my grandma 20 days short of her 99 birthday she was a amazing lady and she had a great life, but we still miss her..

The day of my Grandmas wake I got news from my BB we went through radiation together 8 years ago, she called to tell me her cancer returned in the same breast and had a mastectomy last week. Please remember her in your prayers

On a brighter note : yesterday I had my  6 month check-up had a mammogram and saw the surgeon and 6 months post op I got a clean bill of health. Once again prayers were answered!  AMAZING


I want to wish all of you and your families a safe and blessed Christmas and a HEALTHY 2012
God Bless
Lah

I had a bit of a scare last week, toward the end of the week I was doing a job that I don't do often ( it involved a lot of cleaning and use of a pressure hose etc.) anyway I had sharp hot poker like pains running through my left breast which is the side of my most recent cancer scare, I didn't think anything of it at first but the pains proceed into the next day ( which was my day off) so I called my regular doctor her nurse said I probably just pulled a muscle doing a job I don't normally do, but to be aware if I get nauseous or short of breath or have sharp pains running down my left arm, in other words I probably pulled a muscle but it could be heart related. ( and there now is a heart health family history, my dad had a heart health scare a few months back.. So far the pain has subsisted but it is back to work tomorrow so we'll see. Until then I wish you and yours a safe and happy Thanksgiving... Count your Blessings not your woes!
God Bless
Lah

BC Awareness

OK so we all know that Oct. is BC Awareness month, so here are some quotes;
Squeeze in time for a mammogram
Save a life grope your wife
Save the Ta-ta's
Breast Cancer Survivors are sisters by heart.
Imagine a world with out cancer
Stand Up to Cancer
Fight like a girl
The list goes on and on, bottom line is ' Ladies get your mammogram, they truly save lives, it saved mine twice. Fellows encourage the ladies you love to get their mammogram. Lets work together to fight the fight and kick cancers a**!
God Bless
Lah

God @ work

I work with some amazing people. We had a benefit bake sale yesterday for a co-worker going through cancer treatments for the 3 time and we raised a crazy amount of money. It is such a comfort to know that when push comes to shove human nature takes over and we all look out for one another. God was truly at  work not only with all the amazing cooks that brought in baked goods but also in the generosity of all the people that instead of making a purchase donated gift cards. I had a goal in mind for what I'd be happy with and we doubled that. DPE is so deserving. and a HUGE thank you to my Nestle co-workers who helped make the sale a success.
Thank you all and God Bless
Lah

routine

Had my routine physical today... And was joyfully reminded why I love my Doc. ( Dr. Jackie ) and her nurse ( Joy) they rock. I haven't seen them in about 7 years... And i was like I never left. They are awesome! And FYI! Squeeze in time for a mammogram.
Lah

7 years

Well this year it went by without even a thought but Sunday 7.24.11 marked 7 years since I was diagnosed with ( stage 2 ) BC the first time.  I always celebrated that as my " Life Day" . Now I guess I have a new one, March 8 ( which is when I was diagnosed with stage 0 ) Just another day to celebrate.
Please anyone seeing this get your mammogram it truly does save lives.
God Bless
Lah

4 week check up

Gosh can you believe it has been 4 weeks since I finished radiation? Me either. I saw Dr.MaKay today she is my radiation oncologist and she said everything looks great I am healing well , Thank you God. I did tell her of some discomfort I experience and she said that is perfectly normal and she is pleased with how I am progressing. So I feel good with that. She also assured me that the medical oncologist I will be seeing ( Dr. Gayle  [ I think] and not sure if that is a first or last name) is a nice lady and " good" since my current medical oncologist Dr. Tipping is retiring { how dare he :) } All is well and I will be posting again after my next Dr.Visit please continue to check in. I hope this is helping others as much as it is me.
God Bless
Lah

Yesterday's oncology visit.

Well I was very inpatient yesterday, when I finally got in to the doctors office ( which was right on time, I was just early cause I was anxious to get this Holiday weekend started) I sat there for 20 minutes in his office, finally I opened the door to ask how much longer he was going to be  and he was at the desk doing paper work. He came in and asked if I had to use  the rest room ( really???) I smiled and said I'd be ok until we were done. He asked how I was and then said Here is where we talk about Hormone Therapy.. He gave me 2 choices ( Last time I was on Arimidex and can't do that again) My first choice ( and he and my surgeon recommended  this ) was Tamoxifen I did not want to go on this 7 years ago because a side effect is uterine cancer, the other choice was a fairly new drug Aromasin ( Exemestane )  and according to the Doc didn't have much for side effects. I decided on that one because the Tamoxifen still scares me. He then said we have one other thing to discuss " I am retiring ... :( ( sad face because I really like him for a oncologist) So I am getting a new oncologist, not only will she be new to me but she is new to the Marshfield Clinic.
 So I get to the Pharmacy to pick up the RX and the Pharmacist tells me one of the side effects may be hair loss, bad but not as bad as possibly getting uterine cancer, then he said good thing you have insurance. your co pay is ( are you ready for this) $96.00 and change) after I picked my jaw up off the floor he said this is what it would be with out insurance $348.00 and change) That is per month for 5 years , in short a huge chunk of change.  I swallowed my pride and asked how much Tamoxifen would be and he said considerably less because it comes in generic form, he then said if you want to wait and talk to your doctor you can do that but once you leave with it , it is yours. So I left with out it called the doctor and I am now on a 5 year course of Tamoxifen. :(   ( My co pay with the Tamoxifen is $5) Reading the side effects this morning not only is uterine cancer one but so are Stroke, Heart Attack, Blood Clots and other less severe ones. Jeekers is it worth it????
Have a great and Safe 4 of July.
God Bless
Lah

Last night

Last night was miserable I was so sore and swollen ( remember I am burned in places that weren't meant to see the sun) that to even have a sheet on hurt so I swallowed my tough gal persona and then I swallowed a pain pill, and put in a decent night. This evening at work it started acting up again so on my last break I took 2 Advil and that seems to have ebbed the pain. I am not going to take anything now ( before I go to bed) but you can bet your pa-toot-ie I am going to get up and take something as soon as I feel discomfort tonight  ( if I feel it tonight)

Thanks again to all who have and are following me, and to anyone who stumbles on this 

Good night and God Bless

Lah

Back from seeing the surgeon

Saw the surgeon today and she said all is going well. So that was good news one more hurdle I made it over, she wants to see me again n 6 months I imagine she'll get a better idea of how I am healing then, since I am still pretty burned it is hard to see the healing process. But she seemed confident that everything was going well.

Have a great weekend

God Bless

Lah

certificate

A picture of my DONE WITH RADIATION CERTIFICATE.
Is it any wonder why I grew to love these people??
I cried like a girl saying good-bye to them. The first time in 6 weeks I didn't say " see you tomorrow " In fact I couldn't even say good bye to the last few because i was so choked up! Don't get me wrong I am so happy 2 B Done.
God Bless the staff at Marshfield Radiation Oncology and God Bless everyone reading this.
Lah

DONE!!

Well today was my last treatment. And as thrilled and happy as I am to be DONE!! It was bitter sweet, the people there are wonderful and I grew to love them all. In fact they got hugs from me. Not only did I get a standing ovation from them I got a " certificate of merit" that they all signed and it will get framed and hung in my office.  They became family, and that is a true testament to their wonderful caring ways. And as much as i love them I hope to never see them professionally again! :)
I intend to continue my blog but it probably wont be daily anymore. I see my surgeon on Friday so I will blog a update then. I see my oncologist next week and I see my radiation oncologist in about a month. I will blog as I get results and as " stuff " worth blogging comes up.
Thank you all for following me and reading this and thank you for the support and words of encouragement. I hope someone stumbles on this and it helps them... Pay it Forward.
God Bless you all
Lah

1 more

One more treatment to go woooooo~hoooooooo! I am thrilled to be this close to the finish line. However I am very disappointed with my behavior yesterday: Yesterday a co-workes looked at me and said I am 1/2 way there. I asked half way to what? She said she is 2 1/2 years cancer free, ( she was saying she is 1/2 way to the infamous 5 year mark. ( Great I know) But did I react by telling her how great it is? No I became a martyr I said I was almost at the 7 year mark but now I am starting over..L( boo hoo poor Laura) Why couldn't I just express how happy I was for her mile stone?? I know I did not act how He wants me to. I failed a test He had given me. I instantly felt horrible.. Please forgive me..
I hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday.
God Bless
Lah

In sight

The finish line is in sight. I only have 2 more treatments left. It is hard to believe 6 weeks is almost here ( it seemed like a long way off when I started this blog.) I am thrilled to be nearing the finish line. The RX the doc gave me seems to be helping, I am still blistered but the pain is subsiding. I put the RX on then a gauze bandage and there seems to be some oozing hopefully that = healing.
I made my last treat for my amazing team and gave it to them today they got a loaf of banana bread and a loaf of lemon poppy seed bread. They are a wonderful group of people and I hope I NEVER see them ( at their place of work ) again!
Have a wonderful Monday and God Bless
Lah

3 more

I am on the home stretch. Saw Dr. MacKay ( I love this women) she was looking at my skin and the blistering from the burn. ( She actually noticed I had open blisters under my arm as well, the one under my breast is so big and painful I didn't even realize I had a open one there. Anyway she gave me a RX for a burn cream. I am hoping to have relief by the end of the weekend.
When I got the RX filled a women at the pharmacy said this is amazing if anyone gets a burn, just put it on right way and you will have no problem. Good to know since it came in a " vat" and I have 1 refill.
Enjoy your weekend
God Bless
Lah

4-2go

I have only 4 more treatments! Today was the first day of the more intense treatments, where they are only radiating the area of the incision and where they took the " mass" so now treatments are 1/2 of a Our Farther.  I am really just not feeling like myself lately. I have a case of the blues. I try to put on a good front and as long as I am not alone I am OK , but I am kind of blue.. Hopefully when I can get my routine back I'll snap out of it.
Happy Thursday
God Bless
Lah

1 week left

Well 1 week from right now I will be DONE with radiation therapy! Thank the Lord! I am really ready for this to be done, for a number of reasons, 1 ) I am putting gas in the car every other day, and trust me it really adds up it is probably close to $125 if not more a week. 2) I am tired and ready to be able to sleep in in the morning and not have to get ready as soon as I get up. 3) I am starting to get a little depressed, for no reason and it doesn't last long, but I have moments of sadness. All and all I am just ready to be done running every day!
God Bless you all
Lah

6 more

Treatments are moving right along. Tomorrow is my last one where it is a full scan, starting Wednesday I will start my more focused treatment where they just treat the area where the " mass" was removed. and that is what my last 5 treatments will involve.  So as they say so far so good. Other then the effects I have mentioned.
Happy Tuesday and God Bless
Lah

7 more

Well I now only have 7 more treatments and I will be done. God willing forever!  They saw the burning and suggested very strongly that I use sunscreen when ever I am outside. Due to radiation I will be sensitive to the UV rays ( more so then usual). I had a massage today and found it difficult to lay on my stomach for that amount of time. Couldn't wait to get home and put my suave on!
I took them in a white chocolate and raspberry cheese cake today they were ooooooooing and aaaaaaaaing over it, I told them my dad told me I should't bake for them because they wont want to let me finish treatment. Becky ( one of the gals I see daily) said we'd like to keep you coming back for the goodies but my pants are getting tight.:)
Back to work today
Have a great Monday
God Bless
Lah

Home

Well we are home from the lake and I thought I take a minute or two to update my blog before tomorrows treatment blog.
I have 8 left and from Thursday until I am done ( the last 5) they give me the same amount of radiation but they only hit the area where the "mass" was. It is the same amount of time the same amount of radiation just a smaller area.
I also now am pretty burned there is a spot where I have blistered and because my bra rubs on it, it is raw and quite painful. I would say I am at a constant #5 on the pain scale sometimes it goes up to a high 8 but that doesn't last very long. But I am almost done then I can focus on getting some good rest and healing. Enjoy your day.
God Bless
Lah

10 more

OK I think today is day 20 I am here quick before I go for treatment then back to the lake. I wish everyone could find and know the peacefulness of just being ! At the lake there is NO cell reception, NO t.v it is just you ( and who ever you are with ) and God and all his beauty. We watched a blue heron hunt for his supper, we saw a turkey hawk doing the same thing and while in the pedal boat we saw a bald eagle. It just puts everything in perspective. I wish everyone could experience this. But sadly I don't know what a lot of the people I know would do with out cell service let alone no idiot box! ( AKA the t.v)

Anyway I am off to treatment and everything is going and looking good. I will write in more detail next week when I am out of vacation mode. Until then find some quite time and enjoy.
God Bless
Lah

18 down 12 to go

Well treatment 18 is in the books, I am on the down hill slide now. Everything is still looking/going well.
My blog reports may be sparse the rest of the week , when today is done I am on vacation for the rest of the week and my sweetie and I will be at the lake all week. I will be stoping here periodically to check and collect mail.
Have a great week all and Happy Monday
God Bless
lah

TGIF #17

17 treatments done. And it's Friday!
Saw the doc today and was assured everything is going well! So All is well and it is FRIDAY!! YIPPEE!
Enjoy your weekend and be nice to one another!
God Bless
Lah

day 16

Hi all,
OK to start with sitting in the waiting room today I realized first hand how truly lucky I am with my early Pre-cancerous diagnosis . A women about my age came in and said something to the receptionist, then asked is it ok if I just go back to the desk? I didn't think much of this, but when I got called back there, there she was getting hugs and condolences from the radiation oncology team ( Have I mentioned how awesome these folks are? This women obviously lost a loved one from cancer. How lucky I am that I had early detection. Please ladies get your mammograms, and all reading this if you feel something isn't quite right. PLEASE get your behind to a doctor, I would rather have you go to the doctor and be told it is nothing, then you not going in and weeks, months later you going in and being told you should have come in sooner. OK off my soap box. Treatment is going nicely I see the doc tomorrow so will have a better idea, but I have no reason to believe it is anything but good.
Enjoy your day and to that lady in the waiting room my prayers are with you.
God Bless
Lah

1/2 way

YIPPEE 15 down 15 to go. I took treats to the team today ( creamy chocolate chip cookies with white chocolate swirl) I got a couple of hugs on of the RN's said those cookies are like a party in my mouth :) and another told me " you have a knack" I love those reactions from my baked goodies
I am feeling good I go back to work today after 5 days off so I am rested and ready to go. I am a bit tender but I am applying the lotion and taking care that I don't get to burned. The last 2 days I have seen patients in obviously distress ( hooked up to i.vs and what not ) and truly take a minute to count my many blessings.
However I was in the waiting room this AM watching GMA and there was a story about a women who although there was a big family history of BC she did not have BC or sings of it, she is crowding 50 and decided to have a double mastectomy. Her mom on her second round with BC the story hit home and hit me with more emotion then I expected.. Did I do the right thing? Should I have went with the mastectomy? But like my dad says don't look back unless you want to go there. I have to believe ( and I do ) that I made the right decision.
Enjoy your Hump Day
God Bless
Lah

Day 14

Well 14 treatments down.
Today I had to chuckle to myself there was a elder women in the waiting room, she was being checked in by a E.R nurse as I walked in. She was draped in a blanket with her clothes in a bag. But she was complaining about everything wanting coffee then saying to the nurse " it'll be to hot you have to put ice in it, if I don't talk loud and yell no one listens to me. " then she looked over at me and said " have you had your treatment yet? " I said " no " to which this little old lady replied " great I have to wait for you?" I said " who knows maybe I have to wait for you?" ( which I did :) ) then she asked where is yours?? I didn't answer her, And luckily Walt came and got her before she asked more questions.
I love little old people they get to a point where they don't care what they say, who hears them or who they say it to. Little old lady ( sorry I don't know your name) But I wish you well and a quick recovery.
God Bless all who are reading this and their families
Lah

Enjoying down time.

Well I think I am getting caught up on some sleep. I am not sleeping past 7 like I had planned but I am in bed early. So I am getting some much needed rest. 2 more treatments and I will be at the 1/2 way point.
God Bless you all
Lah

Lucky 13 done

So 13 of 30 is now in the books and I just came in for a quick break I am out in the flower beds and am totally enjoying getting dirty.

I saw the doc today and everything is going well. She instructed me to rest during this long Holiday weekend which I will but I do have stuff to do , by rest maybe I'll just get to bed early and sleep past 7:00

The pain is less intense so that is a good thing and I am just starting to 'burn' but nothing to crazy. 

Well that is enough of a break I hope you all have a Safe and Happy Memorial Day and please take a minute to remember and thank the BRAVE men and women serving this great country

God Bless

lah

12th one done

Well day 12 of radiation is done. I am really tired, the fatigue is getting to me, I am now looking forward to Saturday - Monday when I can sleep in. Today shouldn't be to bad I am doing a job that takes a little bit of thinking. Last night was long because the job was a light rotation job, meaning there were really only 4 positions one you did for over 1.5 hours and it just got monotonous, I was in bed before 11 and slept until the alarm went off.  I am not in as much discomfort now though. But I do take a Tylenol as needed so maybe that is what is giving me relief.

On another note, I wanted to get out and weed and plant flowers this weekend but there is a frost warning for tomorrow, so I doubt if anything will go in the ground but those pesky weeds are out of there.
Have a great day
God Bless
Lah

11 down 19 to go

I am really tired today it seems lately the traveling is what is pooping me out. I am hoping to get some R&R this weekend, but it is a double edged sword because everything I should be doing during the day , I am to tired to do when I get home, so I will probably do that this weekend, but I am hoping there will be time allotted for a nap.
Other then the fatigue and the discomfort I mentioned earlier I am doing great I will be a happy camper in 0 days though.\
Have a great Hump Day
God Bless
Lah

1/3 done

Well apparently I missed a day today was my 10th treatment, so I am 1/3 of the way done YIPPEE!!!
I saw the nurse today and again mentioned the discomfort she told me this is common ( I just don't remember it from 7 years ago) so I am not going to worry about the discomfort and just pop Tylenol as needed!
The nurse also told me I was a amazing baker and asked if I did that for a living. :) Yes my buttons were popping! So 20 more treatments then I am done running everyday and will get my mornings back. Conveniently it seems to be happening just as the weather is getting nice.
I wish you all the best
God Bless
Lah

8 down 22 to go

Well first of all Happy Monday! Again treatment went great I am coming along !  I am surprised however at the amount of discomfort I have. Not from the radiation just discomfort in general. I don't remember this from last time. I am also tired, but I am 7 years older and I now work nights so I am sure that has a lot to do with it.
My team was happy to see me today, this weeks treat was muffins so they got a breakfast treat! I love the faces when they see me walk in with a goodie box this weeks they really commented on the presentation. I used tulip shaped muffin liners and had them in a fancy box. Boy do I wish I could make a living that way. But then I wouldn't enjoy it as much.

I had such a great time this weekend as my previous post indicates. As always I learned so much from dem' cousins! Like " How do you know what color egg a chicken will lay "?    Look at the ear lobes what ever color their ear lobs are is the color of egg they'll lay.
I swear it is true ( go ahead " google " it!) Thanks for the info and the giggle Janet!
Have a great week everyone
God Bless
Lah

quick note

Back from flower shopping and what fun we had. Of course it is hard not to have fun with the group of ladies I was with. Now This weekend I will have to plant my purchases.
Good Night and God Bless
Lah

7 down 23 to go

I am feeling a bit less tried today. My team saw me walk in with a box and Walt ( one of my radiologist) said " what did you bring us today?" He walked into the room wiping his mouth telling me how awesome the cookies are. And as I left almost everyone there made the same comment. That is why I love to bake for others. There is just something about someone enjoying something you made. Next week they are getting blueberry and raspberry muffins.
I have some redness but it is just in a small area ( almost where they inserted the clip to do the biopsy. I am keeping it lathered and smooth so hopefully I wont blister.
Have a great weekend and God Bless
Lah
{ I wont be reporting again until Monday I am going out of town after treatment tomorrow for some girl time, flower shopping with the Door County Cousins.
Love you all~

6 down 24 to go

OK Happy Hump Day! I only have 24 more treatments to go. I am starting to get the fatigue that comes with radiation. I was hoping to get some R&R today but alas it is not to be. I am working tonight ( I wasn't supposed to work but was asked if I'd come in and so ...I am working.)  And I am making cookies for my team. Maybe tomorrow I can take a nap before work, I try to catch up on sleep on the weekend but it seems like there is to much other stuff to catch up on then... Other then tired I feel great. Looking forward to some girly time this weekend.
Enjoy your hump day
God Bless
Lah

5 down 25 to go

Well if I am doing the math right I am 1/5 of the way through radiation. I am surprised how quickly I am done. I mean I was done fast last time too but if I remember right the room was dark and it took more like 5 minutes. Like I have said before this time it is one Our Father and 1/2 of a Hail Mary. But all is still going well. I did ask the nurse today about the " stretching" sensation I am getting in the breast. She said it was probably the tissue reacting to the radiation. This is also new, meaning I don't remember it from the last time. So far so good. 5 down 25 to go.. Tomorrow I am making 2 kinds of cookies for the team..
Love em'
God Bless
Lah

4 down 26 to go

Well I will start this Monday with a weekend update, Saturday we moved Michelle's " big " stuff home from school. It is not only hard to believe it is the end of another school year ( since the thermometer shows March weather and not May's ) but also the she is finishing her 3 year of college, I still remember what she wore on her first day of Kindergarden. ( A dress with a red top and a black skirt w/ polka dots) . And Sunday Bill and I bought a pedal boat ( thanks J & S P ) so we of course took it out to the cabin for a test spin, and if it weren't for the darn gnats it would have been a lot of fun. We didn't sink or tip it so we chalked it up as a success.

Now on to Monday I got my 4 of 30 treatments under my belt. And all is going well I am not getting any discoloration of the skin or anything. Just a bit tired but I am making sure I get my rest.
This is going to be a easy week too I only work 3 days So I am hoping to get a nap in on Wednesday but I will probably want to do house and or yard work if Mother Nature is cooperative.
I wish you all happiness this week.
God Bless
Lah

3 down 27 to go

The day started out with a happy surprise. I got to radiation oncology at about 10 minutes to 9 ( my scheduled appointments are 9:15) The radiologist called me back almost right away, then said " I have a question for you, there is a gentleman that wants the 9:00 slot but he is always late and you are always early would you like to continue to come at this time every day" Heck Yeah! Then after my 3 minute treatment today I saw the doctor and she said everything looks great I am lining up great and she said " you'll breeze through this" Dr. MacKay if you happen to stumble on to this I want you to know I think you are amazing you have a wonderful bedside manner you are so easy to talk to I feel like your friend and not your patient . Thank you.
God Bless and have a great weekend
Lah

2 down 28 to go

Well I was only on the table today for one Our Father and part of a Hail Mary. Tomorrow I see the doc. So I should know more then. I am tired but I think once I get used to getting up earlier I should be ok. Tomorrow yet then I can sleep in ( ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ) on Saturday and Sunday.
Have a great day or better yet make it a great day.
God Bless
Lah

1 down 29 to go

Well I have my first radiation treatment under my belt. I was off the table before my actual appointment time. I will say it again my oncology team at Marshfield are top notch. And since I LOVE to be in my kitchen the radiation oncology team will be eating well over the next six weeks.
I just took a Old Fashioned Coffee House Coffee Cake out of the oven for their week 1 treat ( shhhhhh don't tell them.) :)
Have a great day and God Bless
Lah

Woot Hoot

And so it starts. I start my radiation therapy tomorrow and 9:00. That will mean I should be done on or around June 22. YEAH! I just want to get this started so I can Git R Done!
Have a great day
God Bless
Lah

tattooed

So I got mapped and tattooed today. Now I am waiting to hear from my radiation oncologist to find out when I will actually start radiation. It should be Wednesday or Thursday, gosh I can't wait. I am not sure what I did today but I am quite sore, I took a pain pill. Watching House then I am going to bed. I haven't had to take a pain pill since the day after my last surgery. But I am hurting enough, and I have them so...
Hope you all had a great Monday.
God Bless
Lah

Moms day

What a fantastic Mothers Day I spent it with my daughters who not only but me lunch but took me to Cold Stone Creamery for a ice cream. Thanks M&M I love you gals! Ready to get the ball rolling tomorrow.
God Bless
Lah

could it be??

It actually seems like a spring day today! Is it here ? finally!
I sure hope so. There is nothing like swinging on the porch with a cup of coffee or a glass of something to help the healing process!
Have a great day and enjoy the weather.
God Bless
Lah

And it begins

Just back from Marshfield, and I have to start this post my saying my Medical Team is top notch they are all awesome!
Monday I go in to get mapped and tattooed ( this is so the radiation beams will hit in the EXACT place every time ) and the plan is to start radiation on Wednesday. It will be a 6 week regimen for a total of 30 treatments. I have a great feeling about this especially with the team I am working with, ready to get started so I can be finished.
To all you Mothers reading this have a great Mothers Day
God Bless
Lah

Well I pulled a good one tonight! I was helping fix pies and taking off the film when my hand slipped and I hit myself right at the incision point. OUCH!!! I can't believe I did that but ..I did. Other then that it was a good day. Early Doc. Appointments tomorrow. Will write more then.
God Bless
Lah

Another good night at work. I was doing my back up job and it was just like old times. Am I a 100% probably not but I'd say 95% for sure. I really can't wait until Friday when I see the docs and get a game plan in line so I know what is what. I assume I will have my radiation schedule by this time Friday but who knows???

For all of you reading this please say a prayer for a family of a young man ( a class mate of my twins, 21 years old) who left this world yesterday.
RIP M.K
God Bless
Lah

Work went great tonight, I was actually on the line and the night flew by.. Just a couple of hiccups but you'll have that.  I also felt wonderful because I had my monthly massage this morning, a small piece of Heaven. I am almost  back to myself. And it feels good.  Now if the thermometer would show that it is May and not March!! I mean May 3 and 40* Yikes!
God Bless
Lah

Monday's Monday's

Well my second full day of work went ok. Once again I was a cleaner so I worked at my own pace for much of the night. There were a coupe of times when I forgot and lifted more then I probably should have. But right now I am doing ok. I am tired but doing alright. I am thinking I will sleep like a baby tonight.  Being back in the swing of things and getting used to a second shift schedule again.

And we in the good ole USA have a lot to be thankful tonight. Thank all our Military men and women who everyday risk there lives to keep oure's safe. I can suck it up and take a little pain.
( if I get any right now I am very comfortable.)
God Bless
Lah

It's the little things.

OK I know this is going to sound strange, but it truly is " The Little Things" that make me smile. I just finished a big morning stretch and I had NO pain NO pulling NO throbbing nothing that would indicate I have had 2 surgeries in 3 weeks. A sure sign that I am WELL on the road to a 100% recovery. 
This is Divine Mercy Sunday and He truly has shown me Divine Mercy. Thank you Jesus 
God Bless all reading this and their families. 
Lah

Back in the Saddle

So, my first night at work went ok. I was on a job where I didn't have to keep up with a line I could go at my own pace, which was nice... But it also made for a long night, I think it would have went faster had I been on the line but that is ok. It is just good to be back. And I was pooped when I got home last night I was in bed about 1/2 hour after I got home.
All and All I think it was a good night. I had a lot of support from my co-workers and I thank you all for that.
God Bless
Lah

Chomping at the bit

So I was up before 7 ( no not to watch the wedding) but because I was like a kid on Christmas morning, I go back to work today after being off for 27 days! ( 7 of which were a plant shut down) I am showered and I took a walk. And now I am just waiting until time to go to work.. I am so lucky that I have a job I love that I can't wait to get back to it. I must admit though, it is a good thing I am going back on a Friday. I will have 2 days to recover, before I go into full swing next week. I will drop a note when I get home tonight to let everyone know how it went.
God Bless
Lah

Last day

Woo Hoo!  This is my last day of Short Term Disability. Back to work tomorrow and I can NOT wait.. I feel great today almost no pain. Got a phone call from my surgeons nurse this morning and I meet with the radiation oncologist next Friday, I probably won't get radiation on that day but will at least have the plan and the schedule set up ( I hope) Even though the weather is gloomy I am beaming. So excited at the good news that is fallen in my lap
You all enjoy your Thursday and wish me luck as I re-join the work force.
God Bless
Lah

It's a good day

So I am just back from the doctor, and I am not as swollen as she was expecting so I did not have to have fluid drained. And I saw my oncologist everything is going well, I just need to get set up so I can start radiation and get this party started! And over with.. It was a nice morning spent with my mom. And now I am freshening up and meeting some friends for dinner.. This girl is blessed!
God Bless
Lah

Alleluia!

Just got a phone call from my surgeon and she said everything on my pathology looks good! ALLELUIA!
Another case of answered Prayers.
I did tell her I was a bit swollen and after asking me a few questions she decided she wants to see me tomorrow to possibly drain some fluid ( I know sounds like fun doesn't it??) We are over joyed.. I always thought this would be the case but it was so good to hear it! So I see her tomorrow and my medical oncologist who I am sure will suggest the RX course after radiation, but that is a bridge I don't have to cross now, right now I am just going to rejoice in the fact that I am cancer free! "ALLELUIA , ALLELUIA LET THE HOLY ANTHEMS RISE!!!"
 Good night and God Bless
Lah

It is early!

Would you look at the time? 6:28AM all this time off I am getting a first shift schedule again. Good thing I go back on a Friday to try and get back in my second shift groove. I must admit it has been nice to have meals with my guys, OK with Bill cause if Morgan is home and if there is no game on our TV he is up in the " Man Cave" and I only see him when he needs fuel ( food) or to hydrate or to use the rest room. Oh well boys will be boys I guess.
Anyway I put in a decent night last night,( we slept with the bedroom window open and I loved it. to bad it'll get closed today ) I am still sleeping with a ice pack but that is ok, I am sleeping on both sides and occasionally I find my self on my stomach, so I am taking that as a good sign. I know as soon as I am done in here I am going for another ice pack.
Good thing I have Bill to keep a eye on things all this time I thought my appointment with my medical oncologist was Thursday morning. Oh no it is tomorrow morning. Which is good I will have a much better idea of where I stand tomorrow afternoon and I will be sure to post. I am also meeting some wonderful pals tomorrow ( can't wait to see you guys) then I can rest Thursday ( like I haven't had enough rest) before I go back to make some pies !
Anyway I am coming along nicely and know I will get good news tomorrow I have amazing people in my court! Have a nice day
God Bless
Lah

Funny Story

OK so this may only be funny to me but here it goes, So since I had surgery Friday late in the day I was not to shower for 48 hours and because we went to church Saturday night and yesterday was a lazy day I didn't shower, until this morning. Well I was watching T.V in bed last night and had my arms crossed touching my ( right ) shoulder. I felt something weird in the seam of my shirt and tried to get at it and couldn't so I went under my shirt and on my right shoulder was a EKG patch that didn't get removed in the OR on Friday.. Why did I not feel that Saturday?? Or even Friday night?? To funny.
I am about to go on the road, for no particular reason just to get out and behind the wheel again.
Have a nice Monday
God Bless
Lah

48 hours after surgery

Well the dressing came off about a hour ago.  I am very swollen and have some discomfort. But I am ( not quite) 48 hours post surgery, so I guess that is to be expected.
All is going well. Michelle just went back to school so Bill and I are lounging in our perspective recliners just relaxing.. ( And ok sawing some logs. LOL ) Have a great evening.
God Bless
Lah

Happy Easter

Good Easter Morning everyone. I put in a good night last night with the help of a RX and fatigue. We went to Mass last night which I must say I think the Easter Vigil is one of my favorite Masses of the year.  Our new Priest who is just awesome, but it was something he had in the bulletin that made me pause and reflect, and since it is Easter and a time for new beginnings I have decided to take Father Showri's advice and ( try) to have a Attitude of Gratitude . To be thankful for each new day. Mass got a bit lengthy last night and I was hurting by the time we got home at 10:15 so I went to bed with a fresh ice pack and a pain pill and slept soundly until about 6:30 so I got up. And am ready to start this glorious day.. A few comments that were made by a nurse before my surgery on Friday have me taking pause but I am not gonna spend time fretting about that until / if I have to. I see my oncologist on Thursday and I think I see the surgeon that day too, so questions will at least be asked that day and I am sure answered. And hopefully I will be back to work on Friday, only 8 hours until radiation is done. So that wont be so bad.
OK time for another cup of coffee and to try and peel some spuds.
God Bless you all on this Holy Day and everyday!
Lah

Day 1 surgery 2

Good Morning everyone; Sorry I didn't post anything yesterday I was a bit tired. Everything went well yesterday ( I think) I was awake for the  whole procedure and comfortable. I went in a little after 3 and we where home by 6. But it was still a long day. I'm sore today but I am sure I was last week also. I will know more after I see the doc and or hear from pathology again.
But I am not in the drivers seat He is and He will take care of me, He has for all these years. I am truly Blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. I will probably be back later today.
God Bless
Lah

1 year

Ok this has nothing to do with my blog, but a year ago we at Nestle lost a very special person. He was taken from us far to early. God must have had a special job for him in Heaven, 

we all miss you Donny Angel. Your star is especially bright.

Love you

Momma H

Here we go again

Well surgery is about 7 hours away and I tell ya I can't wait for a lot of reasons;
1) Just to be done and  get radiation scheduled
2) Nothing to eat or drink after midnight sucks, I have had nothing since 7PM and I think just because I know I can't eat or drink I am starved, I'd eat the south end of a north bound skunk ( OK not really but you get the point) Will try to post something after surgery, I just had to jot down a few thoughts.
Love to all
God Bless
Laura

Better Attitude

I have a much better attitude and outlook then I have had  for the last 2 days. I took a walk at 7:15 and I feel rejuvenated. I just talked to a wonderful friend who even though she is going through her own "stuff" gave me encouraging words. And my wonderful GREAT Aunt who encouraged me to read her blog, which I did. I am not in control( I never was ), He is. And what better week then Holy Week to realize that ( again). Everything happens for a reason, it is all mapped out for us before we are born, all part of His plan. He will help us when we decide to let Him drive. I am now in the passenger seat. Let Go and Let God!
Blessings
Lah

Surgery set

OK I added a picture of our little man because he ( Hayu) makes me smile. Surgery is set for Good Friday at 2:15 PM . I am encouraged because this is a very Holy day and I am taking it as a sign. Like I said in my previous post I did not sleep well last night, but I did come to the conclusion I am NOT going to worry until there is reason to worry. I know I will be in good hands and I'd rather do this now then half way through radiation... I will continue to keep you all posted.
God Bless
Lah

Day 7

Well needless to say it was a restless night last night. I kept thinking negative thoughts, what will they do with out me? Will Bill know how to pay the on line bills??? And then I kept reminding myself it doesn't change that I am still stage 0 until they tell me otherwise. So I hope as the day goes on I will get my positive attitude back. I know that is what I need to stay in and win the fight. It just sucked the wind right out of my sails. And as I sit here writing this, I am thinking why??? The surgeon only wants to make sure she got all the suspect material that is just being pro active and I am just worrying myself in to a tizzy for no reason. ( imagine that?) I am going to have questions for the nurse when she calls today.. Thanks for checking in and please continue to pray..
God Bless
Lah

Well Crap in a Sack

OK so here I am strutting my feathers feeling all invincible. That I am recovering so nicely from my surgery last week. Well my surgeon just called and my pathology report is in... And she is fairly confident she got all she needed to but not 100% and not enough to not do anything. So I am going back in probably Friday to have her take a little more and hopefully all of it. And hopefully I will feel like this next week too.
It sucks but hopefully this will be it and I will be back to my old self very soon. It is Holy Week so please Pray for a Easter Blessings
Good Night
Lah.

One Week

WOW I can't believe it one week ago today was my surgery, I feel so good. It is hard to believe I am only a week post surgery. I am sleeping on my stomach and everything.
I spent today with a wonderful women, her and I went through radiation together in 04 she was the appointment just before me, we became fast friends ( "breast friends") in the waiting room and have a wonderful friend/relationship to this day. It is always a good day when I get together with her, she always lifts me when I need lifting.. And grounds me when I need grounding! ( Thnx Mary I love ya)
I am surprised and thankful at how amazing I feel. I see my doctors ( surgeon & oncologist) next week I am thinking after those appointments I will know when I start radiation but until then I feel wonderful and am so thankful for all of you.
God Bless
Lah

Day 6

What a glorious day, you wouldn't know it by looking at the thermometer 28* but it is a lovely day I have a load of delicates and a load of bedding on the line. And Mother Nature is ready to throw a curve ball with a winter weather warning, does she not know it is SPRING?

Anyway enough about her. I feel GREAT today if I wouldn't look down and see the steri-strips covering the incisions I'd forget I had surgery 6 days ago. But I did. So far today no pain to speak of, had a little yesterday but I was naughty ,Bill and I pruned my hydrangea bushes , even though he wheeled the chain saw I was gathering the brush. Had to sit with a ice pack in the afternoon but no meds :)

Now before you all yell at me ( I know I deserve it) I also know that was a big no no.

But it was good to be outside doing something... And believe it or not I am looking forward to Thursday when I go back to work...

Have a wonderful Monday

Gods Blessings to all of you and especially to D.E ( Your in my thoughts & Prayers dear) and to

 G.R. ( you too are never out of my thoughts and Prayers.

Lah

Day 5

Good Sunday Morning,
As we start Holy Week I am struck by how truly blessed I am. Yes I am on this journey again but ;
Stage 0 = Lucky, No Chemo = Lucky , No lymph nodes were taken = Lucky, I have a lot of friends and family praying for me = Lucky and a lot of them have me on their churches prayer chains= Lucky! Yes this girl is truly Blessed.

The days and nights have been fairly easy and pain free, but I get abut mid-late afternoon and I am having some pain not bad enough for a RX but bad enough to need ice. I am planning on going back to work on Thursday so I think starting today when I start feeling the pangs of pain I am going to lay down for a power nap. And we'll see if that helps.
Enjoy your Sunday
Lah

Day 4

A week ago today Bill and I renewed our wedding vows, ( We will be married 25 years in May) The road has had a couple bumps but not many. This is just one of them.
Last night was a restful night. I am extremely swollen yet and a bit concerned. I am also itchy so I know that means I am heeling, which is what I want. But I am feeling so good this time around I am almost wondering when the "bad" will hit~ Hopefully it wont. As of now I am planning on going back to work on the 21 which is a week before I see my doctor. I should know by Tuesday the 19 how I am feeling and if I am not close to 100% I will contact work and change my back to work date. Of course they wont let me go back with out a release but I think that is on its way. It is weird how simple tasks like pushing a broom or the vacuum cause pain. Don't worry Bill is a huge help and not letting me do that. But even driving and wearing a seatbelt cause a slight bit of pain.
But I am only 4 days post - op so I guess that is to be expected.
Enjoy your Saturday
Lah

Day3part2

Today was rough, I didn't do anything but on a scale I'd say my pain hovered between 5-7 I took a nap but no RX may have to suck it up and take one.  I am also very tired and I don't know why I am not doing anything, but sitting , icing , eating and sleeping! 

Have a great Friday

Day 3 of recovery

Well I slept through the night with out the help of RX ! :)
Thanks to all the warnings from my friends and a lesson learned I am still a ways away from 100% so I am going to take it easy today. Bill is caught up so he is staying home with me today. Instead of posting on my blog I should be composing a " Honey Do " list .  Driving still is a bit bothersome probably shouldn't have ventured out yesterday but .....  I am feeling great but my body does tell me when I have overdone things so I have to listen to it and heel so I can return to work next week.
Have a great Friday
Lah

Day 2 part 2

Today I think I may have over did it a bit. I got a lot done before noon but then had to take a pain pill and a nap. I got up from my nap and got supper in the oven ( pot roast potatoes and carrots) and I got tomorrows supper ( cream of potato soup) started. But am feeling tired which is hard to believe since I have only been up from my nap for about a hour.
Time for ice and putting my feet up. Gonna try and stay up a little longer so my sleep tonight is less restless. I am also itchy so I assume that is the heeling process!
Thank you all for your encouraging words, they are so appreciated, keep em' coming
Lah

Day 2 of recovery

Well I put in another good night, although last night I was a bit more restless then Tuesday I still got a decent nights sleep.
I only had to take 2 pain pills yesterday but went through a lot of ice packs
I had Bill take the dressing off this morning and it looks pretty good. I also got a shower in before he left for work so I feel more human. I think the ice pack will be my best friend today too.

I think I figured out why I feel light headed and a bit dizzy ( dizzier then usual) Before surgery they gave me some anti nausea meds in my IV but they also put a anti nausea patch behind my ear that needs to be there for 24 hours , I am just ready to remove that. But I am thinking that is the cause of it.

Also just started to have a bit of pain, I have ice on the wound but may have to take a pain pill.
Lah

Day 1 of recovery

Well I am not sure recover is the right word, I put in a great night last night, I didn't wake up once. Now I am in almost no pain but I am kind of dizzy or light headed. Have not taken a pain pill yet today but I did just get up. I have a super dry throat but am drinking H2O like crazy, and when my coffee is done I will have a nice hot cup of Joe. So far the start of day 1 I feel pretty dang good.
Lah

Home

Just got home and before I fall in to a RX induced sleep I thought I'd share the first part of my day ;
Needling , like last time was not a great experience. Although this time I was in a comfy chair it was still a not so great experience. While compressed the mammography doc was " placing the needle" * I started to get a weird tingling feeling in my left shoulder, then I started to get queasy and light headed, so I said something. The mammography tech said " she's gonna pass out" so they raised the compression the doc left and a Wonderful RN ( Shelly) came in. they laid me down and kept cold compresses on me. When I got some color back they raised me up and started the procedure over . At about 9:00 AM I was reunited with my wonderful Bill, and off to surgery we went. Where I slept like a baby.
I woke up in recovery so I assume all went well. :)
The Surgeon said it was Harder to get at then she anticipated. She went from the top ( by top I mean if I were looking down, she went from the "top. ) She also had to go deeper and take a bit more then first thought. But was still confident. However we still do have to wait to see what pathology has to say, which is common procedure.
I am quite medicated , tired and sore. But I am also over this hurdle.
The medical staff that took care of me in Marshfield were/ are awesome
Thank you and God Bless them all.
Shelly you are awesome at calming and soothing me taking my mind off of what was going on.
Scott, you are a wonderful nurse you did a excellent job of explaining things and doing your job!
Lah
{ just a note** Needling / placing the needle is where you are compressed in the  mammography  machine. They then place a LONG needle about the thickness of 2-3 hairs in the area that surgery is going to remove, they then take pictures of that to make sure they have the right area. then off to
surgery} 

On the Road again

We are just getting ready to head to the hospital.
Nothing to eat or drink after midnight, I'd do just about anything for a cup of coffee. :)
First procedure is at 8 AM the surgery at 10 AM so I am hoping to be back by 2PM at the latest and will hopefully share the day with everyone reading this
even if it is only me.
Brightest Blessings everyone.

calm and cool

As I sit here less then 12 hours from surgery I am remarkably calm.
Is it because I have been down this road before, and kind of know what to expect?
Is it because I am tired?
Or simply because I know it is in His hands. If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it. He is AWESOME!
Good Night,
( I will try and post when I get home tomorrow) :)

And so it starts

Well here is a little about me for those that are stumbling on this.. In July of 2004 I was 40 years old and diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer.
On 3.8.11 I was diagnosed with stage 0 breast cancer ( in the opposite breast as in 04) tomorrow I am having a lumpectomy and have decided to blog about this 6 week journey. A commitment for me since I may be the only one reading it. But we'll see. So until surgery is over. I guess this is it.
Have a great Monday